Saturday, July 22, 2006

My Song...

My pal Dianne has been posting songs to express herself, so I thought I would do the same. My grief has completely overtaken me. I wish I were more like Mel and would want to clean everything in sight. Instead, I feel like laying on the floor and sobbing...
Here is my song:

"So Hard" by The Dixie Chicks
Back when we started
We didn't know how hard it was
Living on nothing
But what the wind would bring to us
Now we've got somethingI can imagine fighting for
So why is fighting all that we're good at anymore
And sometimes I don't have the energy
To prove everybody wrong
And I try my best to be strong
But you know it's so hardIt's so hard

It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hard when it doesn't come fast
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hardIt felt like a given

Something a woman's born to do
A natural ambition
To see a reflection of me and you
And I'd feel so guilty
If that was a gift I couldn't give
And could you be happy
If life wasn't how we pictured it
And sometimes I just want to wait it out
To prove everybody wrong
And I need your help to move on
Cause you know it's so hard
It's so hard

It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hard when it doesn't come fast
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
So hard

I can live for the moment
When all these clouds open up for me to see
And show me a vision
Of you and me swimming peacefully

Last night you told me
That you can't remember
How to feel free

It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hard when it doesn't come fast
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy, easy
It's so hard

5 comments:

Dianne/Flutter said...

It thoroughly expresses it. It is so hard, when it doesn't come easy or fast.

But, when I'm down it is a miracle how things happen that can make me feel at peace. There is that devine intervention of making me move forward. I hope the same is true for you.

Today, I sobbed in the morning and went back to bed. Woke up and sobbed some more. Got up with T. and visited his Aunt, Uncle and 3 miracle IVF success stories. I feel better now.

I'll post more on that, I think it will give everyone hope. Yes, that word again.

But, I have hope for us all at this moment. Not sure how long it will last, but for the moment.

Those little ones will come to be with us soon enough. You'll have to be the trigger friend.

Melissa said...

It's Ok if you only want to sit and sob on the floor-I'll just mop around you! :)

But really, everyone has their breaking points when you just want to cry-and that's alright...then, you pick yourself up, brush off the dust, and move forward-with lucky cycle #2!

Everything's crossed for you this cycle, Joei!

Anonymous said...

My Joei,

I have hope beyond hope for you and for all of the sweet and lovely girls out there who are travelling this path with you. Thank you to everyone out there who is helping my little Jo-Jo bear! I send each of you all of the love, strength, and power I have inside of me as you make this journey together with your partner.
Joei,I know you are meant for great things. Let's all just agree that this 2nd cycle will move your ahead on your path to motherhood!

I send you much love and good mojo! =)

Judi

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