Good News/Bad News Post

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, everyone!! I am making this a two-part post... half is happy stuff, the other half is horrible and awful and if you don't want to cry, just skip it entirely.

I feel like I need to do the good news first... I have made it to the half way point! HOORAY!! Only 19 more weeks to go... It kind of feels like forever, but I'm sure it will go by fast. Also, we had our 20 week u/s yesterday. Everything looks really good. Baby was moving around a lot, so they couldn't get a clear picture of her 4 chamber heart, so I have to go back in 4 weeks. The u/s tech saw it, but couldn't get a picture. I'm told NOT to worry! She also couldn't get a clear picture of the baby's face, so we left with pictures of two arms and a leg. My mom and Jeff were there, which was nice, too! And I cracked... I couldn't help it... Ever since they did the cervical scan and said they could tell what the baby was, I have been dying to know... and I have no regrets knowing. Its a girl! I kind of felt it was all along; guess I was right!

Now for the bad news... My dear friend who is about 11 weeks pregnant found out on Friday that she has cancer... Its in her leg, in her bone. Its localized there, which is good. Nothing was found in her lungs or the rest of her bones. But, she will have to do chemo, and the OB nurse said that will attack the baby. She'll probably have to have a D&C... They call it a "therapuetic abortion". What a rotten name. My friend said its either that or have the chemo attack the fetus, which she said doesn't seem fair. She'll talk to a RE so she knows what will happen, but they don't have time to harvest her eggs. I guess they can shut down her system, which might protect her eggs, but I am not 100% sure. It just sucks. I have no idea what to say to her, so I just listen and let her talk. She has some u/s pictures and she started to buy some baby clothes. I don't know if I should find this stuff, and put it in a box for her, or let her and her dh decide what to do.

Please keep her, her dh, and their little angel in your prayers.

I have self control!

I went to the OB yesterday with my mom and J. My mom really wanted to hear the heartbeat, which I thought was pretty sweet! :) I went in for the cervical scan first. The u/s tech is doing her thing and then she asks me...
Do you want to find out the sex of the baby? Because I can tell what it it...
Oh my gosh... My heart starts racing and I say...

no???

Yup, that's right... no, that's okay... I really wanted to, but since J wasn't in the room, I felt weird about doing it, and I've been saying "I'm not going to find out" for so long now...

I got dressed and found my mom and J and told them the u/s tech knew what we were having, but I didn't want to know. You know when you can see emotions on someone's face?

Pure disappointment, on both of them... My mom now insists its a boy because she would have seen the boy parts... I told her, maybe she saw nothing, therefore knows its a girl... Well, at least its SOMETHING!!

The rest of the night, I kept asking J...

Did I make the right choice? Should I have found out?

He says I'm driving him crazy asking him...
We have our regular u/s in a couple of weeks... If I still feel like this, I'm going to HAVE to find out.... Its like someone has my Christmas present under the tree and if I just peeked a little, I would know what I'm getting...

Augghhh!

My Belly

I am adding some belly shots... Please be kind... I know I just kind of look chubby; not really pregnant. In these pictures, I am 17 weeks, 4 days pregnant.